What's done is Done. |
As much as i try to not bring up the fact that he bought that PC, i realize in a way that i sort of still do. I'm still upset and hurt and i don't know that i will get over it soon. He'll say something and then end it with ..."when we're together again.. " and then I'll say something like "...but it won't be for a long time..." and that's when i realize that I'm still not okay with it. I'm left with the afterthought of: 'you could of been here sooner' I know i need to stop because what's done is done and there's no turning back so I'm aware that even if i hate how this happened, i can't go on bringing it up all the time when i miss him and i wish he was here. I think that's when i bring it up the most but it's also a way for me to vent it out of my system and make myself feel like I'm not hoarding my feelings. It sucks and it hurts and i don't think i will feel any better about it. The only solutions are to accept that it's happening and keep calm. I know there will be moments from now until he's back here where i will feel like placing blame for the amount of time it will take for him to be here again but i don't do it out of spite... I don't know how I'm going to make it until next August... assuming nothing else goes wrong and he can make it that month. |
posted on 2015-09-17 @ 11:39 p.m. |
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