I try, but then again the whole time i'm wondering if any of this is worth it if in the end he just pushes me to the side for someone else. Then he's so ungreatful about it and it bothers me that nothing i ever do is good enough. I don't ask for much do i? I mean, i loved his Ozzy photo and i'm perfectly okay with his half smile and hair pulled back. I don't really need much to become excited because the feelings i've carried for him are already there.
Sometimes i feel so insecure and maybe other people would think i'm just being crazy because i've always been told how beautiful i am even if it takes awhile for me to believe it.

Gosh, sometimes i don't know.

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