Realizing my Reality. |
There's just something you feel when you find out someone you knew since they were a tween and you were in your late teens is now engaged and you're still trying to work on your parents approving of your significant other at 27. I'll admit- i was slightly hurt by it but not because of her engagement, because i care for her and am happy for her. She has made some big time screw ups and even went through a huge pregnancy scare that involves the guy she's now engaged to. it turns out they misdiagnosed her and she wasn't expecting but she told her parents before she was absolutely certain and well, her folks are good friends with mine and brought her and her sister up to be Christian from birth. She basically shot herself in the foot by admitting she was having premarital sex... but anyway, she's young. 22 and she's now engaged. Isn't there some sort of unspoken rule that people who do everything wrong are the ones who should be going through hard times because of it? Here i am doing everything right. i listen to my folks, i trust their best interest in me, I abstained from sex, didn't get pregnant at 16 like my mom and never brought a guy home until Fabi. Sure, i had disasterous long distance relationships in the past but made it through them with a healed heart. Maybe it feels unfair that i can't be engaged to the love of my life yet and she is when all she's done is mess up and disappoint her family. I don't know. Even typing this up is exhausting. I don't care if our wedding is in 2 more years. |
posted on 2015-07-28 @ 9:21 p.m. |
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