| The "P" Word. |
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Today, Burch asked me what i thought about Porn. I wasn't expecting that one so i sorta chuckled. I wasn't going to lie to her. I've watched it before. Mostly out of curiosity then moved on. From what i've gathered, it's mostly straight to the point. Hardly any actual kissing. Vaginal or Anal and the story is done. I remember once seeing a woman with almost no breasts and it looked very unappealing although the man that was doing her was riding her then when he had his mouth on one of her breasts, i thought 'what's he gonna play with?' She might as well have been a man with those boobs. I don't think i ever told her that i'd seen it before, but it came up. I think it's safe to say that there's nothing beyond just simple curiosity. Lately i haven't been feeling so attractive. It really has nothing to do with my body image this time. Mentally, i guess it hasn't been there for me. I haven't had the time to feel sexy or desirable. I've been working mostly and all i want to do is make it through my shift. Right now i feel drained and tired. I don't have the energy to even get my blankets and cover myself. I just took my bra off, changed into my t-shirt and released my hair from the braid it was in. If i don't go to sleep soon, i'll regret it come morning because i've got church, then work right after that and most likely i won't have time to eat anything at all until 9 o'clock at night and that's not exactly healthy. Oh, i just want to take a week off and just go somewhere. It's been so long since i've had some time off where i've felt rested and happy. |
| posted on 2012-10-21 @ 12:22 a.m. |
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