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2023-12-21
| My friend E. very recently recommended a company for me to apply to— something she said was right up my alley. It turns out she was right. I made mental gymnastics out of it for a day and then plunged. I uploaded my resumé, then took their… test? Aptitude screening? I was careful, but hopeful. I sent everything late in the evening not expecting to hear anything at all for a few days per their own e-mail after submitting— they said they have many, many applications to go through. Against my better judgement, i talked it over with my mother. Maybe i shouldn’t have, but i was hopeful for the first time in a long time and i guess i needed someone else to know so they could cross their fingers for me or pray. I said something along the lines of: “If it’s for me, it’ll happen.” trying to sound casual and not anxious or concerned even though i was, because of how much i needed this in my life. I woke up the following day to an e-mail: Thank you for applying for the XYZ role. We really appreciate your interest in joining our company, and we’re pleased that you decided to invest time and effort in applying.
“…We have carefully reviewed a large number of applications; unfortunately, at this time we won't be able to invite you to the next stage of the hiring process. Though your application was impressive, we have decided to move forward with a candidate whose qualifications are better suited to this particular role. Please keep in mind that the XYZ role is very competitive and these decisions are never easy…” I was definitely suited for this, but maybe they didn’t like my availability since they said they wanted people to work weekends. I made myself available Saturdays but not Sundays for religious reasons. Maybe no real person reviewed my submission and some random computer program did since they have so many applicants. I hate that these companies don't give you feedback-- just some crappy "you were great... BUT" automated e-mail. They don't give you the reason for saying no so you'll know what to work on or do different in case you thought about reapplying. It took a good chunk of courage for me to do this because i don’t get enthusiastic about many companies. I just don't know where the hell to go from here. I had hoped to end this year with a job offer, but the only thing i’ve been able to count on is steady disappointment.
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