life changes. |
he's buying his plane ticket tomorrow. $1,616. it's hitting me now... and aside from his actual presence, i know the harder parts are yet to come. My parents have no idea he wants to buy me an engagement ring. he wants to tell them beforehand and even though i know his plan is to buy it, i have no idea when, where, around whom and in what way he will do it. i told him not to tell me. it concerns me that after one and a half years of being together, that him and my dad have never spoken and now some guy wants to propose to his daughter. I'm a little afraid, I'm not gonna lie but i know this trip is going to drive a ton of changes; there's no way around it. i want these twenty days to be wonderful and amazing and I'm hoping fabi�n will listen to everything my dad has to say without feeling like he's got to defend himself. i have no desire to be the uncomfortable spectator between the love of my life and my concerned dad. i can relate to both and feeling like I'm the one with the responsibility to guide my own boyfriend to a relationship with Jesus is a tough thing to carry but at the same time, i chose to continue this relationship knowing fabi�n came from a broken childhood that continued on until he was 18. he's made tremendous progress and i shouldn't get too worried or anxious. if God has a purpose, i should let Him carry my worries so he may work on fabi�n's heart. i just want to be happy and have him truly know what its like to have a wonderful life believing in God. Not in a fanatic kind of way. i don't like it when others do it to the point of obsesiveness. in this ever growing wicked world, i just want him to know hope and true love. so here's to a trip full of possibilities. |
posted on 2014-11-21 @ 8:15 p.m. |
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