it's the dives into sadness that do get to me sometimes. a result of the hard life he's had and i know it will take more time until he is okay and no longer takes trips to those places but i am there and i know coming here will give him a new perspective on everything.

I think once he permanently leaves his country, he will finally be at peace. He was never meant to reside there anyway and just like him, i want our home, our place, our space, our bed.

our babies.

our life together.

i get that part.
i just hope someday he understands that the things that happened and contributed to some of his trauma growing up was not his fault. they were wrong, not him.
I don't say this as his girlfriend. i say it as one human being to another.

he plays hypoteticals. i usually don't like the kind he brings up.

He needs out of there. thank God his vacation is getting closer. we need our time together.
we're both so anxious and want to be with each other right now.

we just have that final hurdle to cross and i will see him in January.

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