Heart Strings. |
In spite of my own undeniable happiness with who i'm with now, it's still going to take some time to completely drain every fiber of romanticism i accumulated with you over the years. YEARS. That doesn't just go away, but i know it will eventually...someday. When i think about it, i know that if i ever went back to you, i'd still crawl into the hole i was in. I'd still feel uncertain that you'd love me -not sure if you ever did- maybe you cared about me a great deal, but in the end, i don't think you'd give as much as you took. Maybe i'm just sad over you not ever showing me love the way i wanted. The 'what could of been but never was' kind of deal. Something -however small- still tugs away at a heart string or two. And anyway, do you ever completely get over someone that meant so much to you like that 100%? That's what i'm trying to find out. I guess it's okay to still feel a little bout of sadness about something that meant a lot. That was eight years that just blew away with nothing to show for it. Well actually, i'm hoping Friend for Life. At least i hope i have that.
Things happen for a reason, even if i never fully figure out what that reason was. |
posted on 2013-07-31 @ 5:39 p.m. |
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