Fight, don't Cry. |
Daisy's funeral was today which i also missed because i had to work. I closed tonight and Marlee was actually there. She's kind of one of those neat freaks who want everything to look flawless. We all get annoyed because the store will be thrashed come tomorrow. I left a little later than usual because we were all fixing up all the way around. Made it home now. I'm also closing tomorrow and then again on friday and i am completely free for this weekend (woooo!) i only got one day off this week but i'm not whinning. i need my check to be extra awsome so that the balance on my Visa will go back to it's original awsome high balance. I payed some of the balace from mom's Kohl's charge- that was $70.00 and my car insurance is $80.00 and i just got my car payment bill but it's not due till the 20th so i've got time. *Dad and i got into a fight yesterday. It wasn't pretty. I don't want to get into the details of that but he acted like a mean fuck with zero feelings. We hadn't had an argument for a long, long while. He's the kind of person that will come to you and start yelling out of nowhere and you're like "huh?" but the thing that i hate the most is that instead of yelling at him right back like he deserves, i start to cry. I cry out of anger. I always cry during arguments with him or anyone else and it's not because i'm sad about it...it's because i'm so angry that i can't seem to do anything else BUT cry. I talked to Tim about it a little today but i didn't go into detail with him either. These things tend to stay with me longer than i think they will. I'm still mad at him even though he apologized after he had calmed down. Mum wanted me to hug him but on the inside, i was like 'Fuck No...' and then dad said he didn't blame me for not wanting to show affection and that he probably deserved any anger i had towards him. |
posted on 2010-07-06 @ 11:37 p.m. |
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