i'm worth it. |
Mum always said i was worth absolutely everything. This was always said while i sat with half of my leg under the other on the couch bitting my nails. I'm not a nail bitter, but those conversations always made me nervous. It took some convincing for me to agree to this confrence shin-dig but she is gosh darn persuasive sometimes. This time she talked casually while i listened- also very casually. Stevie Ray was playing guitar on my iTunes so it was hard for me to fully concentrate on either of them. She gave me some good points- some of which i had never stopped to think about before and i half smiled at her. She'd sit and then she'd stand and i'd just sit in my not-so-comfy chair with my arms crossed. Sometimes i'd bite my bottom lip and not look directly at her eyes because i knew she'd end up convincing me. My hair was down that night which is rare. I always have it up in a bun because i don't want to bother with it. Some days i'm actually in the mood, even if i don't go out with a friend and i let my hair down in those loose curls. That's how my hair looked. Mum said i looked even prettier because something in me had changed lately and i almost laughed. The shin-dig was done. I agreed to it. I knew in some ways that i wasn't doing anyone any favors. I owed it to them to be the one that would break all language barriers and maybe i was a little bit responsible for bringing people here and shedding some light in their lives. I would look down during some pauses and my hair would get in my eyes, then i'd look up and there, looking at me were faces i knew and faces i didn't know. Then i'd look at Daniel and he'd smile at me. He has a quiet power about him and he doesn't even have to speak. You can see it in his eyes. 24 hours later, i have a wonderful car that i just bought. It's mine. I'm paying for it. My monthly payment is reasonable and even though my father doesn't have a job right now, we're not panicking. |
posted on 2010-03-07 @ 8:32 p.m. |
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