I'm stubborn. I know it. |
My head is throbbing right now. I feel a little bit empty inside, dissapointed, sad.I'm still crying...even now. Everything feels unfair and i can't even figure out why. I've never felt so much frustration in my life. Nothing has ever made me feel so upset. I hated laying there crying and not knowing what to do anymore. I had no idea if everything was still even worth it anymore if in the end he was just going to leave me to find someone better than me, maybe someone that could give him the things i couldn't at the moment. I feel weakened on the outside. I still believe love is capable of overcoming obtacles...even this. How can i make it through this when he's stopped believing in it? "Babe, i just wanted to say i love you..." "Babe, you're amazing!" "I missed you!" *cries* all of that's gone now and i miss it. How can i have the strength hold on when i'm the only one carrying this love inside? Even if i gave him exactly what he wanted, it's still not bringing him here and it's not going to make him love me. I hope the rest of this day goes well. Hopefully i can give him what he wants before heading off to work today. I can't promise i still won't feel like crap while i'm there. I'm stubborn. I know it. |
posted on 2010-02-09 @ 1:27 p.m. |
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